Going for speed
Just to try and prevent ninniness...Been keeping myself busy so this post will be short, I'll try and be succint.
In every aspect of life I want to actually know where I stand. How good am I a driver? How good am I a conversationalist? How good am I at trumpet? How good am I at singing (tone, range, technique, characterisation)? How good am I at handling jealousy? How good am I at handling anger? How good a friend am I? How good a person am I? I'm sure you get the gist. Any one of these questions is in itself a can of worms. And, to make it so much more difficult, they are almost all relative. I feel that if I have a good grasp on these things I, to a large extent, will know 'who I am'.And, of course, another question which don't seem as socially acceptable to openly ponder - how attractive am I?
Once I've figured out actually where I stand with any given characteristic, accepting that that's how I actually am. For example, if I think to myself "I've practiced stopping from 80km/h in the wet. I know I can do that", I know who I am in this regards, and I've accepted it to an extent. I've never practiced stopping from 100km/h in the wet. Enough of this tangent and its pointless and misguided example scenario.
Ok... I've realised a shortfall to the simplicity of my list. It doesn't include (although I include it subconciously when I think about it) the fact that you can improve, adapt and ultimately change characteristics in order to accept and be happy with them.
This is a discheveled post. I would normally spend far longer than I have. Also, nearly all the questions I posed earlier are of the most simplistic type, and I chose them because you can only really argue their inclusion, not the questions themselves. Questions like "Do I believe in god?", "What is my moral stance on theft?" are probably more indicative of types of quesitons, if not the questions themselves. And more often than not the questions are metaquestions. Like "What do I think of what I think of my moral stance of theft". Deep.
Work out who I am
In every aspect of life I want to actually know where I stand. How good am I a driver? How good am I a conversationalist? How good am I at trumpet? How good am I at singing (tone, range, technique, characterisation)? How good am I at handling jealousy? How good am I at handling anger? How good a friend am I? How good a person am I? I'm sure you get the gist. Any one of these questions is in itself a can of worms. And, to make it so much more difficult, they are almost all relative. I feel that if I have a good grasp on these things I, to a large extent, will know 'who I am'.And, of course, another question which don't seem as socially acceptable to openly ponder - how attractive am I?
Accept who I am
Once I've figured out actually where I stand with any given characteristic, accepting that that's how I actually am. For example, if I think to myself "I've practiced stopping from 80km/h in the wet. I know I can do that", I know who I am in this regards, and I've accepted it to an extent. I've never practiced stopping from 100km/h in the wet. Enough of this tangent and its pointless and misguided example scenario.
Be happy with who I am
Ok... I've realised a shortfall to the simplicity of my list. It doesn't include (although I include it subconciously when I think about it) the fact that you can improve, adapt and ultimately change characteristics in order to accept and be happy with them.
This is a discheveled post. I would normally spend far longer than I have. Also, nearly all the questions I posed earlier are of the most simplistic type, and I chose them because you can only really argue their inclusion, not the questions themselves. Questions like "Do I believe in god?", "What is my moral stance on theft?" are probably more indicative of types of quesitons, if not the questions themselves. And more often than not the questions are metaquestions. Like "What do I think of what I think of my moral stance of theft". Deep.
