Wednesday, 17 October 2007

Thinking Music

My first self titled post. I'm definitely in a thinky mood. Listening to the album Yourself Or Someone Like You, Matchbox 20. It's definitely thinking music.
We have lots of dilemmas in life
  • The texting someone whom has no credit dilemma.
  • The wanting to know the answer to something but not wanting to pose the question dilemma.
  • The wanting to tell someone something but having no way to tell them dilemma.
Many of my friends are single at the moment. Many of these are very recently single. One of my recently single friends is also my ex. (A beautifully ambiguous statement). She remains one of my best friends, even though we rarely see each other. I know I can tell her anything, I think she feels that she can tell me anything. Even though I rarely see her, she's still my best friend. I know she'll always be there for me (as long as I'm not on an ego trip :P). I wish I had more friends like her. She's the type of friend that everything they say you take to heart. The type of friend whom, if they compliment or critique you, you really feel it. The type of friend who knows, if they so chose, exactly how to destroy you - yet they don't.

My shoulders hurt. I love the pain. My (assistant) manager is most definitely a sadist. I am most definitely, ever so slightly, masochistic. Strangely, admitting to the latter is far less socially acceptable than the former. A significant portion of why I'm posting so much today is to deliberately dilute each details attention - actually hoping that the more I have the less people will attend to. But why post something unless you're wanting people to read it? Have you ever heard of grouphug.us? I think dilution has the affect of perceived (yet ever so slight) anonymity.

4 comments:

Jon said...

I don't know Glenn, that grouphug site sort of shits me. Mainly because it's pretty repetitive: i.e. heavily concerned with "couples" relationships. Also, it shits me because I get the feeling the people that "confess" are trying to be poetic or at the very least profound, when really EVERYBODY has felt (to a degree)what they are experiencing (probably). I hate reading that stuff because the people that write it read like they're the center of the universe, or that they think they are.

It reminds me very much of this "secret postcard" thingie, where a guy just put a shit load of blank postcards out, all addressed to him, with instructions on what to do with the card. Essentially, participants were randoms who happened across the cards. They were asked to write any secret on the blank side of the card, and send it to the address on the other side of the card. They were encouraged to be as visually creative as they could. Twelve months later, the guy got a selection of the thousands of cards and published them in a book. (He is still getting cards today). The majority of the "secrets" concerned couples relationships. There were some standout ones in the book like "Catherine, I still love you. This is my last try." But for the most part they were just the same old emotional shit, page after page. That book and grouphug.us, offer a good cross section of human obsession if you ask me. Ourselves.

Mmm.. Profound.

Ed said...

I've felt those dilemmas. Someone said to me the other day, as I was talking through some shit with her, "It sounds like your learning to live with those things that never gets resolved."

I think all the things you've mentioned are frustrating for you because you need an outcome, which is very natural. We're told by our parents and teachers and mentors and pop self-help gurus that we should always resolve shit - good, bad or otherwise. But they never tell you that sometimes stuff doesn't get resolved because, for one reason or another, it can't.

Sometimes getting the outcome that you didn't want is better than getting nothing at all.

And Glenn, Jon is a wet-blanket sometimes when it comes to being expressive or emotional, but he's always pretty balanced and fair.

Glenn Francis Murray said...

I actually heard of grouphug.us ages ago, and more recently a postcard experiment (similar to the one you mentioned). Not a huge fan of either really, but some of the postcards are very artistically creative and depressing - a few are even funny. My own version of it, really, is that I have blogs which I keep which are completely anonymous. I don't update them often, just when I really want to say something to the cosmos but don't want people to know it's me. Yep.

Jon said...

Not a wet blanket. Resent that statement. Also, a little confused. Wouldn't a wet blanket be someone that is usually upset or something. Perhaps you mean that when you (or anyone) is down and emotional, I'm a wet blanket because I dull your emotional intensity by telling you to get over it. "Build a bridge." Maybe. In which case, you'd be right, but "wet blanket" still has negative connotations. So eat poo.

Wow. Secret anonymous blogs. That's cool. I don't think I've ever confided anonymously to anything. It's always been a friend, or a different friend.

I'm loving my cap gun. Go the show! That could be it's new catch phrase. "Come on kids: GO THE SHOW!!" XD